hi people.

life has been sucky for the past few days. okay no, i think life has been horrible since the start of march. i have so much to say but i don't know how to put them in words. zzzz. one bad thing has been happening after another. i feel like i'm v detached from everyone, from everything. i'm sorry if i had spoken incoherently/zone-d out/ignored you when you speak to me, etc. it's not on purpose okay! i'm just floating through everything without properly registering stuff in my brain. i feel downright lousy nowadays. arghhhhhhh. and nationals are coming up which makes me feel reallllly nervous. and i'm neglecting important people in my life, which makes me feel guilty x 10. and i think i'm being a total asshole towards certain people and i'm very sorry for that. i think i'm not sticking to my principles in life anymore. i'm not doing what i'm supposed to do. i think my brain is degenerating at the speed of light. i think i have accumulated too much bad karma. btw, i am not made of steel (though i seem like i am). and i miss quite a lot of people now. and my japanese lessons have stopped.

on a lighter note, i had a fun time planning for ll & jp's wedding with 4/5 of ggg. it's gonna be a very grand affair so look forward to it okay! oh yeah, we came up with their children's names. the girl will be called fehling (from fehling's solution in chem) phua zi ling (zi from jp and ling from ll). the guy will be named kekule (from kekule structure in chem) phua lee jian (lee from ll and jian from jp). oh yeah, we cannot forget about chem nerd! he is seriously stalking ll :O it's okay ll, we will protect you! or rather, jp will protect you haha.

i am very thankful to have friends like ggg and squash girls and cc and twh and yc and faithc and mrs kame and etc. you know who you are.