Hi. Tday's my mother's birthday so Happy Birthday Mommy! :D It's supposed to be a joyous occasion but I feel hmn, scared. In order for us to grow up, our parents have to grow old. I don't want them to grow old and frail.

And I think I'm becoming like how I was in Pri 5 and Sec 2. I seriously have no motivation to study. I don't want to study. Like starting from Term2 in P5, I started slacking my guts out. All I did in school was to play. Then, I'll have tv-marathons everyday after school. I didn't do my Daily Maths Worksheet [trust the new P to introduce something like this], I didn't pay attention during lessons, and I think I didn't understand anything in school. Then, I got 26th in class and I freaked out. My mom also freaked out. Lol. So after that I got super scared thus I started to er, pay attention in class and do my hw and stuff. Ok then in Sec2, I play play play play play play [cos got new friends mah] and I totally neglected my studies. I stayed back in school and slacked everyday with ZL/pltmates/classmates. If not, we will go PP Macs [I miss PP macs!] or the tauhuey shop [I miss this place too!] and I will reach home just in time for dinner. Of course, I didn't really bother to do hw/study/revise wtv wtv. So, my grades dropped and I got twenty something in class again and I freaked out again so I started studying again. But then things became complicated and I became very busy so there was no time to study [teachers/parents will say this phrase is rubbish] so well, of course I didn't do well for tests/exams etc. la. Then now, I just don't feel like studying. I know people say that studying is much better than working. But then studying. Don't you get sick of it? It's like you are stuck in a rut, going through the same mundane cycles everyday. There's nothing new, nothing exciting to look forward to. All my friends [like CC, who is at HC 24/7 studying. Srsly, she can just move in and live in school. CC are you reading this? You can go camp at the Super Quiet Room that you told me about liao] are mugging their asses off while I, being the big lazy worm, am just rotting my life away.

Okay then there's my organ lesson. Every Saturday, I dread going for my lessons. I don't practice my organ at all except on Saturday mornings whereby I wake up at the unearthly hour of 7am to chiong my scores. All my organ mates are quitting/have quitted. I want to stop organ [temporarily, maybe until after As] because I have no interest in it at allllllll. But my parents will object so like -.- And honestly, I think it's quite a waste to quit. I have been playing it since I was 5. Ok, imagine the amount of money my parents have invested. And I'm at Grade 5 already! After Grade 5, I can quit without regrets. Btw, organ different from piano hor.

Then my jap. Ok I love jap. I really want to master this language well. But I haven't been doing my jap homework recently. ZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz. And since my jap class is after my organ lesson + I have to wake up super early on Saturdays to practice my organ, I will sort of doze off for a bit during my jap class. And that is damn sian because I don't want to miss any part of the lesson but my eyelids refuse to cooperate. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.

Ok I think it's a super long post. If I were you, I won't bother reading because there are such chunky, long paragraphs full of nothing but words.

PS: I quite happy today because I ESSL-ed for 3min. EC today happy like bird [I know it's supposed to be as happy as a lark but wtv]; smile so brightly, laugh so loudly and the eyes shining [EC got super nice eyes and smile I like], I see I also happy :D Ok, I love singlish.

PPS: I ate 15 to 20 seeds of durian on Sunday, hoping to get a fever, but all I got was a super bad pimple outbreak. Like knn, wth.

PPPS: I like KHJ, AJ, CPJ [ok, only EC]. They all have the letter J in their names! :D I like the letter J haha.

PPPPS: I don't want normal school to start because there's 1.5hrs of Physics Lab on Tuesdays. Physics Lab is like the worst period.

PPPPPS: A Cedarian helped Singapore attain the bronze medal for long jump!

PPPPPPS: On behalf of CHERIECHOO, please wish 大头 good luck HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Hope he get medal. Eh, bowling results out anot ah?