its not working out. we still decided to let it go, pretend nothing has happened even though the truth's staring right back at us. its good in a way, but i feel really bad. somewhat guilty. i mean, all of us have to make the effort. its logical that we shouldnt just corner people just because we saw what they did. we didnt even make the effort to question why did they do that. its kinda awkward now. i do feel sad. last time, back then, X years ago. it has all changed, its different now. i really dont want it to end that way, i also dont want it to be like this. i agree that people are still trying. but the heart's not there. can you feel it? its very obvious right. i know, you know, we all know. but will saying it out help? i have a very strong urge to force people to sit down and really talk about it. but we considered the consequences and they are not to our advantage. we understand, we really do. i think they understand too. i dont want to feel like this. i dont want us to act like strangers, to feel uncomfortable around one another. yes, that has never been achieved before but, nvm. that reply, that few words. i know that its still okay. there's still hope. ever felt like being driven out? no, im not talking about that. i dont want to lose people just like that. i only trust the few of ya'll and i rlly love love love love love ya'll to bits and pieces even though i dont show it. then there's the different wavelength, different ways of communicating. many many many many many differences. it seems like there's nothing more in common. so what. im v vexed now. do you understand? i hope ya'll do.
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i want to go and cut hair! its so out of shape. my fringe sucks too. the backview is so uglyyy. but i miss my old long hair. plus, its so hot nowadays, having short hair can kill. i think i should just go cut it short short short.
anyway, tohwenhui is back! haha, have yet to meet up w her. eh you ass, i rlly miss you! funny, how we were enemies, then became friends then progressed to bestfriends. okay, i shall dedicate one paragraph to you! though we have disagreements at times, and we argue a lot, but you are still the tohwenhui whom i can call/sms anytime/anyday when i felt like it. i rmb there was this time we had a huge argument then we didnt talk to each other for 2 days? then we cant stand it and made up. i think we can relate well to each other. hmn. we can call and talk abt random things, do random things, etc.
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i think im missing a lot of people now.
i miss my pltmates alottttttttt.
its been a looooooong time since i saw them. i miss sitting at the round table listening to them talk crap. i miss their siao antics.
i miss faithcheah. its been a looooooong long long long time since we've talked. faithcheah! i want to tell you a lot of things.
i miss gerell spastic koh toooooo):
i miss jasmineyap and her kiam pa sentences.
i miss my moley culey leejiatian.
i miss EMILY TAN SI MIN. i really really really miss this girl. she's one of a kind manzx. we sort of grew up together. sighhhhhhhhhh.
i miss my clone, and leong xinyi.
i miss shakila & marcia & jasminetan.
i miss averygangangan, aw jialing, milissa wong.
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sometimes, life sucks.
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HAPPY SWEET 16TH, IVON LIM!