I think Mr Yau rocks.
Every single class is like an encouragement.
Ok, I don't know how to say this.
You have to be me to understand it:/
After Physics class today, I felt..more raw.
What he said just like came 'bam!' to me.
Then I started having goosebumps lol.
Because I always have goosebumps when someone is saying exactly how you feel when you don't even know the person well.
Or that someone is saying something that seems to jolt you awake.
Like to really know and understand and feel.
Like you suddenly come to realise this fact which you've always known but not acknowledged.
It's just hanging there; always there but like so near yet so far.
I think now I know what I really want to do for this year.
And I'm going to put my best effort in those things.

Just now, I was so depressed I started to binge on potato chips.
Its like those really really bad type.
Because I don't usually binge unless I'm feeling really really down.
I just felt so sad that everything and I mean everything is plain superficial.
Everything is just so fake.
All the effort we put in is actually not what we really want; its just habitual.
And I'm scared that it will be breaking apart.
We are not real.
Whatever we do.
Its just out of habit you know.
Its like there was never this true relationship between all of us.
We hang on to each other just because we need friends to get through this period.
And after that, its graduate and byebye.
I have nothing to do with you; you have nothing to do with me.
Its sad you know.
To finally realise that all that you put in are just all wasted.
And its sad that they are actually not there for you when you need them.
You cannot talk to them about anything.
You cannot rely on them for their support.
You don't have faith and trust in them.
You don't understand each other.
You cannot even remember each other's birthday.
We feel uncomfortable around each other.
That we all hang around just to 'use' each other in a form of a 'friend'.
And even to have the cheek to say that we will stick by each other through thick and thin.
I mean like, what's the point of hanging out together when everything is not real.
We are not even close to Them Four.
Comparing us and them, its a really great huge difference.
Why can't we have a bond that is real.
We really need to sit down and talk.
Sooner the better.

But thanks Faith(:
For talking to me for so LOOONG.
And listening to me.
And really understand how I feel.
And for sharing how you feel as well.
And among many others.
Thanks for cheering me up(:

And now.
The part whereby both of us are worried about.
Ok I just want to say that it is your own future.
Whatever I tell you, it is because I care about you.
No matter how little you think of me or that you only treat me as a 'friend'.
Or that you are just plain using me.
I don't care okay.
The thing is I really do care about you.
And I'm worried for you.
So please listen for once.
Please don't act like you don't care about all those things.
Because I know you really care.
But the thing is you refuse to do anything about it.
Come on.
Don't all talk no action.
This affects your future.
It is very very very important.
You NEED it.
So please don't slack around anymore.
Please just work hard from now onwards.
Please study hard.
Please just listen.
It is for your own good.
It is because we don't want you all to waste all these opportunites.
We don't want you people to become wasted.
We know how you can turn out if you continue fooling around.
We don't want that to happen to you all.
We don't want you to have regrets.
We are trying to help so please listen.
Please don't just wave away what we said to you all.
Please, ok?

Now, another thing we talked about.
About this certain someone.
Please be more sensitive.
Care a more about those around you.
The whole world does not only revolve around you and you and you.
Please be more considerate.
If you are going to keep up with this type of attitude, then, I wish you all the best man.